September 6, 2011
Ella has started kindergarten at Kings Park Elementary School. Chris and I knew that she would have no problem starting school; as a matter of fact she was counting down the days. She was ready to go. By the way new shoes and new outfits help.It turned out that I got more emotional about it than I expected. It threw me off guard.
Even though I have had many milestones with Ella, her first day of school has really given me a slap in face that tells me that I am a mom. It might seem like a strange thing to say, but the burden of responsibility seems to have doubled overnight. I tell my friends that I would do these past 5 yrs over again in a heartbeat. For me now is when it gets really hard.
What I'm I worried about? Everything. Do I expect too much of her? I'm I a little paranoid because as a teacher I see the everyday struggles of some kids? Friends become part of her life and they can have a strong influence(good and bad).
Today I dropped her off(no more walking to class) and watched her walked into school. She looked so small with that big pack pack. I had to remind myself that I told her she would be okay doing it by herself. Sure enough I picked her from the sitter and she gives me bigger hugs than before and tells me that she had a good day.
Ella has started kindergarten at Kings Park Elementary School. Chris and I knew that she would have no problem starting school; as a matter of fact she was counting down the days. She was ready to go. By the way new shoes and new outfits help.It turned out that I got more emotional about it than I expected. It threw me off guard.
Even though I have had many milestones with Ella, her first day of school has really given me a slap in face that tells me that I am a mom. It might seem like a strange thing to say, but the burden of responsibility seems to have doubled overnight. I tell my friends that I would do these past 5 yrs over again in a heartbeat. For me now is when it gets really hard.
What I'm I worried about? Everything. Do I expect too much of her? I'm I a little paranoid because as a teacher I see the everyday struggles of some kids? Friends become part of her life and they can have a strong influence(good and bad).
Today I dropped her off(no more walking to class) and watched her walked into school. She looked so small with that big pack pack. I had to remind myself that I told her she would be okay doing it by herself. Sure enough I picked her from the sitter and she gives me bigger hugs than before and tells me that she had a good day.
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